In the early morning hours of March 15th, I awakened from a very vivid dream about snakes. After I fell asleep again, I immediately had another dream in which I found myself in my current home at the landing of the stairs which is directly in line with the front door which just happened to be open. And that’s when I noticed that a black wolf of great size, was standing at at my door. She was positioned sideways which meant that her body more than spanned the width of the entrance. I felt a sharp pang of fear as I reached for the door with the intention of closing it.
But before I could shut it, I awakened. Even though this dream was so short, it took longer to interpret than did the previous one. I was no stranger to dreams. But after Ayahuasca, I started having dreams that were noticeably symbolic. I began researching the meaning of dreaming about a wolf and then specifically, a black wolf. I discovered the YouTube video which I posted below. Interestingly, the comments are full of people who also found the video during their research of what it means to dream of a black wolf.
The video is of YouTuber, Olena GreatLifeU, reading, THE LEGEND OF THE BLACK WOLF: A tale of illusion vs. truth. The author, Forrest Rivers tells an amazing story about fear, dogma and obviously, illusion vs. truth. I didn’t know it then, at the time of the dream, but less than a month later, I would enter the dark night of the soul, the peak of which, would coincide with the April 8, 2024 total eclipse. And during that dark night of the soul, I would sift through the ashes of my life as I tried to differentiate between what had been an illusion all along and what had not.
The legend involves a small mountain village in the Canadian Rockies. The villagers had repeatedly reported sightings of the rare black wolf. Two of the most revered warriors, Riverstone and White Lightening, were sent to hunt the black wolf who was believed to be a threat. They found him only to discover that he was a divine being, God-in-carnate. When the warriors returned to their village, they explained to the council how they had learned that their fear of the wolf was based on dogma, the origins of which, equated him to a trickster.
After telling their story, which included the date when the wolf would visit the village, the two men were ostracized and stripped of their warrior status. They surrendered and became the black sheep. As promised, the wolf visited the village. The remaining soldiers met the wolf with an onslaught of fiery arrows which caused both of the demoted warriors, to cry out in agony. The crowd watched in awe as the black wolf then stood and performed alchemy in front of them by transforming the burning arrows into flowers. He now had their undivided attention.
Thus he taught them about oneness, non-duality and the illusion of separateness. Riverstone and White Lightening had already come to understand that they were the wolf. That is why when the arrows were shot at him, they felt the pain which resulted in their cries of agony. By the time I had finished listening to the reading of the story, I knew I had almost shut the door on myself. See, I was the black wolf who stood there calmly as though she was simply guarding the doorway.
On that day, I couldn’t process the dream any further beyond that point. I had a full day of hospice visits. But eventually, I came to understand that any interpretation which includes identity dogma, such as the old saying, “to keep the wolf from the door” could support an illusion. In my case, I believed in an illusion which said I would lose security and resources if I told anyone my story. This caused me to quietly keep enduring the torture which was being inflicted upon me day after day.
Above is a screenshot from my research that morning. When I first started looking, I didn’t know that black wolves were rare, so I initially left that keyword out of the search bar. But it is just as well because the top search result without it was comparable to finding the legendary mountain villager’s response. Dogma such as that found in the story of Little Red Riding Hood & The Big Bad Wolf, teaches us that wolves are not be trusted. And then there’s also the well known adage, wolves in sheep’s clothing.
The interpretation in the screenshot above was spot on since that was exactly my Chiron in the second house fear. However, the deeper truth was that just like in the preceding dream, that which I feared was based on an illusion rooted in dogma. I’ll talk about the second house in the next entry. But first, above, is a fantastic TedTalk from Frank Shamrock. He describes the top highlights of his incredible life as he talks about the “aura of fear” which he built around himself. He explains how fear is really just an illusion.