In the early morning hours of March 15th, I awakened from a very vivid dream about snakes. After I fell asleep again, I immediately had another dream. There, I found myself at the landing of the stairs, which is directly in line with my front door, which just so happened to be open. And that’s when I noticed that a black wolf, of great size, was standing at the door.
She was positioned sideways which meant that her body more than spanned the width of the entrance. I felt a sharp pang of fear as I reached for the door with the intention of closing it. But before I could shut it, I awakened. Even though this dream was so short, it took longer to interpret than did the previous one. And I’m no stranger to dreams.
But after Ayahuasca, I started having dreams that were noticeably symbolic.
I first began researching the meaning of dreaming about a wolf, and then later, a black wolf. First, I found information such as in the screenshot below. It reads, “Wolves can appear in your dreams when you fear or are experiencing loss, especially of a material or financial nature, stemming from the old saying, ‘to keep the wolf from the door’ which indicates security and not going hungry.
That interpretation was spot on since it pinpointed exactly my Chiron in the second house fear. And remember, I was then, and still am, in the window of my Chiron return. That basically means I’m in a season where I’m getting fine tuned in my Chiron wound management skills, especially as it pertains to my insecurity around resources. Maybe that’s the same thing as getting calibrated to move towards my north node which is in Libra. And that’s the same thing as moving towards trust in somebody besides only myself.
Next, I found something completely different, the YouTube video which I posted below. Interestingly, the comments are full of people who also found the video during their research of what it means to dream of a black wolf. The video is of YouTuber, Olena GreatLifeU, reading, THE LEGEND OF THE BLACK WOLF: A tale of illusion vs. truth. The author, Forrest Rivers, tells an amazing story about fear, dogma and obviously, illusion vs. truth.
The Legend of The Black Wolf: A Tale of Illusion vs. Truth
The legend involves a small mountain village in the Canadian Rockies. The villagers had repeatedly reported sightings of the rare black wolf. Two of the most revered warriors, Riverstone and White Lightening, were sent to hunt the black wolf who was believed to be a threat. They found him only to discover that he was a divine being, God-in-carnate. When the warriors returned to their village, they explained to the council how they had learned that their fear of the wolf was based on dogma, the origins of which, equated him to a trickster.
After telling their story, which included the date when the wolf would visit the village, the two men were ostracized and stripped of their warrior status. They surrendered and became the black sheep. As promised, the black wolf visited the village. The remaining soldiers met the wolf with an onslaught of fiery arrows which caused both of the demoted warriors to cry out in agony. The crowd watched in awe as the black wolf then stood and performed alchemy in front of them by transforming the burning arrows into flowers. He now had their undivided attention.
Thus, he taught them about oneness, non-duality, and the illusion of separateness. Riverstone and White Lightening had already come to understand they were one with the wolf. That is why, when the arrows were shot at him, they felt the pain which resulted in their cries of agony. By the time I had finished listening to the reading of the story, I knew that I had almost shut the door on myself. See, like the warriors, I am not just a black sheep.
I am also the black wolf in my dream who stood there calmly as though she was simply guarding her own doorway.
That morning, I couldn’t process the dream any further. I had a full day of hospice visits ahead of me. But eventually, I came to understand that any dream interpretation, which includes identity dogma, could support an illusion. So what is identity dogma? In my mind, the second half of that term, dogma, is an out of balance belief system. It forgets that to everything there is a season. Therefore, it doesn’t remember that the wolf doesn’t have just one identity, that of a thief or trickster.
But in fact, the metaphorical wolf might play a villain in one person’s story, and a savior in someone else’s. The villain perspective created that old saying, “to keep the wolf from the door.” And then there’s also the well known adage, “wolves in sheep’s clothing.” And don’t forget the story of Little Red Riding Hood & The Big Bad Wolf. The illusion then, is that dreaming of a wolf is strictly a bad omen or warning of some type.
And that’s okay. The villain perspective is valid. It’s just that it isn’t the only perspective. And yes, my original dream meaning search results were accurate. However, if I had stopped there and not continued to look for the other side of the truth, I would’ve been stuck in identity dogma. And the illusion would have been a one sided dream interpretation which only validated my fear around the subject of resources.
Frank Shamrock. & His Aura of Fear
I’ll talk about that fear and the resources of the second astrological house in the next entry. But first, above, is a fantastic TedTalk from Frank Shamrock. He describes the top highlights of his incredible life as he talks about the “aura of fear” which he built around himself. He explains how fear is really just an illusion.
P.S. I didn’t know it then, at the time of the dream, but less than a month later, I would enter the dark night of the soul, the peak of which, would coincide with the April 8, 2024 total eclipse.