When I awakened, it was the morning of the eighth day since I quit my jobs. Before I even got out of bed, I had started analyzing the meaning...

That night, in the wee hours of the morning of the 12th, I dreamed vividly. And in one of those dreams, I walked under a sunny sky across a...

It was April 4th of this year and a few months after that last Ayahuasca ceremony, when I quit my part-time job without a notice and returned supplies to...

During reflection, that evening after the last Ayahuasca ceremony, I had found myself wondering if I had been the guest of dishonor amidst a coven of “bad” witches. I...

I remember the first time I heard someone on Facebook talking about the witch wound. I felt resonance with the concept. It reminded me of my fear of being...

That kind of vision is not unusual for me. I regularly day dream or night dream the future. And at times, I awaken from my dream while the events...

When I was finally alone, I replayed, in my head, every single moment of that Ayahuasca retreat. Whatever I had previously glossed over in real time, I scrutinized during...

Later in the day, after the Ayahuasca ceremony had ended, and after the shaman’s apprentice had joked about us being a cult, the shaman came over to talk. Out...

This story begins with the last time I participated in an Ayahuasca ceremony. I was sick but not with a communicable disease. I had been growing weaker and having a...

IFB stands for Independent Fundamental Baptist. It is the cult into which I was born. Now If you think IFB sounds familiar but aren’t sure, maybe you’ve seen at...

When my children were young, I read an article in a magazine at our doctor’s office. I requested permission from the office staff to rip out and take those...

Now I’m at the part where I have to go back to Matthew 6:33. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall...

Once Love had my soul, Grandmother Aya switched it up on me. She tricked me. I had thought I was selling my soul to a Love that was euphoric...

For me, there has always been this point within the Ayahuasca experiences where Grandmother renders me incapable as she holds me down with a force that induces submission in...

One evening, in the early part of this year, while cooking and washing dishes, I was using one semi-dry finger to scroll up on TikTok. I was listening but...

The repairman arrived at my door that warm mid-May day and my nine month pregnant belly went before me as I led him through the trailer. I pointed out...

Prior to becoming an adult, the only time I ever went to public school was for driver’s Ed. I was fifteen and the most agonizingly self conscious I had...

Through Christianity, I was taught, for most of my childhood, that being born again was as simple as asking Jesus to come into my heart and save me from...

Especially then, after I have adapted to the cold water, I breathe intentionally. See, at that point, my rapid gasps for air have long since been replaced with calm...

In a previous entry, I referenced Marijuana as being the gateway fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. I see it just above the metaphorical...