Category: My Story ~ Enlightenment vs Spiritual Psychosis

“Oh,” she said, are you really a chaplain or did you just buy your certification online?” Without hesitation, I answered, “Both.” That was the question a nurse administrator asked me yesterday during a job interview. She noticed my resume heading which reads, Connie White, RN, LMT & Ordained Minister. I explained that I attended Ambasssador…

The rest of the morning, I contemplated the question from my dream. What do you want your gift to be? I considered a variety of answers including freedom, fearlessness, courage, resources and wealth. As children, I think we have all wished for endless wishes when asked for what we would wish if we could only…

Early this morning, I dreamed I went to jail, prison actually. In the opening scene, a group of woman were showing me the best way to rig up menstrual pads. One of the them looked at me and said, “Why don’t you just buy yours?” I had just enough time to feel defensive before I…

I haven’t yet advertised my blog. And yet, I recently learned that some of you are following along and waiting for the next entry to post. But what ya’ll don’t know is that there are hundreds and hundreds of privately published entries. When I complete those and make the final edit, I switch them from…

I want to tell you how psychedelics destroyed my life. I’ll start with that one particular Ayahuasca ceremony where I sold my soul. You would have never convinced me that I would ever lose control to that degree. Before that, I had always wondered how, if the conspiracy theories were true, could the so-called Hollywood…

I was listening to the song linked below when I had a sudden thought. I have done the one thing I wouldn’t do for love. Now, if like me, you’re fascinated by conspiracy theories, you’ve probably heard the rumor about how the elite of Hollywood supposedly sell their souls to the devil. I remember when…

Dear Daddy, It was good to talk you a few days ago on my birthday. It was then you said something about learning to not care what people think. And I guess I’ve reached the part of my life where I can’t move forward until I start practicing that. I’ve decided to be authentic, starting…

Surprised that he was calling, I answered the phone. He sounded really good. He wished me a happy birthday. He doesn’t usually call me even on my birthday. I call him a few times a year like on his birthday, Father’s Day and maybe Christmas or Thanksgiving. I started calling him after I forgave him….

It’s 1:51 am on March 1st. My daughter and I came back from the movies a couple of hours ago. Yesterday was my 48th and most favorite birthday. We watched A Complete Unknown, the story of Bob Dylan. It was the perfect Pisces day to watch a Neptunian sort of movie. You know I had…

In 2023, at 11:11 am, on 11/11, my Uber arrived at the Tenderloin Museum, the place where a guided walking tour was going to later start. I was so early that I first took a tour by myself. The familiarity was overwhelming. I couldn’t remember exactly which street crossed where, but generally, I knew where…