Dear Daddy, It was good to talk you a few days ago on my birthday. It was then you said something about learning to not care what people think. And I guess I’ve reached the part of my life where I can’t move forward until I start practicing that. I’ve decided to be authentic, starting…
Category: My Story ~ Enlightenment vs Spiritual Psychosis
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A SEASON TO HEAL (BIRTHDAY PART II)
Surprised that he was calling, I answered the phone. He sounded really good. He wished me a happy birthday. He doesn’t usually call me even on my birthday. I call him a few times a year like on his birthday, Father’s Day and maybe Christmas or Thanksgiving. I started calling him after I forgave him….
EVERY DAY A BIRTHDAY?
It’s 1:51 am on March 1st. My daughter and I came back from the movies a couple of hours ago. Yesterday was my 48th and most favorite birthday. We watched A Complete Unknown, the story of Bob Dylan. It was the perfect Pisces day to watch a Neptunian sort of movie. You know I had…
OUR STORIES ~ THE TENDERLOIN TRIBE PROJECT
In 2023, at 11:11 am, on 11/11, my Uber arrived at the Tenderloin Museum, the place where a guided walking tour was going to later start. I was so early that I first took myself on a tour. The familiarity was overwhelming. I couldn’t remember exactly which street crossed where, but generally, I knew where…
IDENTITY CRISIS: TOO SENSITIVE
I think of my sensitivity as both a handicap and a super power. I heard someone say that being highly sensitive isn’t an obstacle or something to overcome. They talked about taking the pain that comes with high sensitivity and turning it into power. That’s alchemy. And while I don’t think high sensitivity is something…
THE TENDERS ARE THE SENSITIVES
I’m a tender, a sensitive. You probably know if you are one. For as long as I can remember, I’ve known I am different in this way. On the sensitivity bell curve, I am softer than most people. I feel afraid of judgement as I write this because I have been told repeatedly in some…
WHY TENDERLOIN?
When my daughter learned that Tenderloin Touch® was the name I had chosen for my massage therapy practice, she said, “It sounds like the name of a butcher’s shop.” And I suppose it does to someone who doesn’t know the story behind it. But before I explain, I must first tell you how a San…
12th HOUSE PROFECTION YEARS (PART II)
In Part I, I defined the term, profection, while also acknowledging that delusions and illusions belong in the 12th house. Because this is my 12th house profection year, this is the perfect time for me to intentionally focus on creating through (positive) delusion. But before I tell you the details of my strategy, let me…
CREATING THROUGH THE ART OF DELUSION IN THE 12th HOUSE
Based on the title, I may sound like I am contradicting myself since I just said in the last entry, that for me, denial was no more an option than was confirmation bias. So let me explain. By now, if you have read more than a few entries, you know why I like to reference…
CONFIRMATION BIAS VERSUS DENIAL
The times when I was so sure I was right only to discover I wasn’t, are what have made me repeatedly err on the side where caution is thrown to the wind. Many times I have talked myself out of knowing what I know by reminding myself of all the instances in which I was…