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Prior to becoming an adult, the only time I ever went to public school was for driver’s Ed. I was fifteen and the most agonizingly self conscious I had ever been. Everyone was looking at me. And it wasn’t just because of my height, clumsiness, awkwardness, red hair or my outdated look and long skirt….

Through Christianity, I was taught, for most of my childhood, that being born again was as simple as asking Jesus to come into my heart and save me from my sins. However, after experiencing Ayahuasca, I had redefined both death and rebirth. I’d also found myself wondering if the main perk of being born again…

Especially then, after I have adapted to the cold water, I breathe intentionally. See, at that point, my rapid gasps for air have long since been replaced with calm and almost too slow breaths. And then I make myself get out of the water, the same water into which I had to make myself go,…

In a previous entry, I referenced Marijuana as being the gateway fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. I see it just above the metaphorical eggplant, a low hanging and easy to reach fruit. Psilocybin is above that and higher up, is Ayahuasca. Now this is just how the forbidden fruit…

So you can probably see how the teachings of Abraham Hicks could be perceived as spiritual bypassing as defined by @yourspiritualmermaid. Again, she said it is trying to force yourself not to be sad or angry and “trying to force gratitude onto yourself.” However, Abraham teaches not to use force. In fact, they say to…

Spiritual Bypassing is an especially relevant term on social media right now. TikTok user, @yourspiritualmermaid, defines it as trying to force yourself not to be sad or angry and “trying to force gratitude onto yourself.” And this is the definition on which I want to focus as I talk about Abraham Hicks. But first, I…

The year was 2019 and it felt like nearly a lifetime had passed since I completed that summer internship in Winona Lake. Leah Remini’s influence in bringing awareness to abuse within religious cults was expanding right alongside the Me Too movement. And I was in contact with multiple television producers to discuss my Hephzibah House…

He showed up at the school one evening with an equipment delivery. Another student and I had just finished cleaning and closing the kitchen for the night. We were headed out the door as Rashaad was entering. As soon as the coast was clear, I made my way back to the kitchen where he was…

 It was the last evening of camp preparation. The next day, church busses filled with cheering kids would be making their way down the long gravel driveway. Rashaad and several others would be leaving the next morning. We had all stayed around the campfire as long as we could before making our way back to…

I was still sixteen when I joined my older sister at Ambassador Baptist College, (ABC) a non-accredited IFB school which was then in Shelby, NC. Although I had been sent there as an alternative to a reform school for girls, I was absolutely thrilled. My father was more than a thousand miles away in MN, the…