Now I’m at the part where I have to go back to Matthew 6:33. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.. So, if I take my theories which I laid out in the previous five entries, and combine them, I can make sense of Jesus’ words. To recap, the kingdom of God, at least in part, is enlightenment and enlightenment is the knowledge of good and evil. The knowledge of good and evil is the knowledge that duality is an illusion. And that is the same thing as the knowledge of oneness or unity consciousness.
Next, God is love and love is unconditional. So if I were to rewrite this verse in the Connie White Version, it would read, “But seek ye first the unity consciousness of unconditional love, and love’s righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.” So now I just need to define righteousness. I should say I’m well aware that there are scholars like my father, as well as all of my male Bible college professors, who have studied Greek and Hebrew and take great delight in teaching the “original and true” meaning of words in the Bible. By no means, are they wrong.
Eventually, I will get to the part where I explain my belief system which in turn will explain my reasoning behind my method of discovery. But for now, I am going to quote R.C. Sproul who says, “What is righteousness? The simplest answer to that question is this: Righteousness is doing what is right in the sight of God.” If I view God as unconditional love through the lens of unity consciousness, then I am not separate from God. Jesus said in John 10:30 I and my Father are one.
So if I am one with God, in the same way a single drop of ocean water is the ocean, then there must be a season during which I can interpret for myself that which is right. Perhaps, it is this mindset that makes me a heretic. I completely know and understand the rebuttal here. I was born into the opposing arguments. I can practically hear my father preaching from II Peter 1:20b, No prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation as he admonishes the congregation to consider the whole counsel of God.
He would also cite Proverbs 21:2, Every way of a man is right in his own eyes: but the Lord pondereth the hearts. And then he would quote Jeremiah 17:9, The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? He isn’t wrong nor am I. To everything there is a season. The rest of that passage in John (10:31-33) reads, Then the Jews took up stones again to stone him. Jesus answered them, Many good works have I shewed you from my Father; for which of those works do ye stone me?
The Jews answered him, saying, For a good work we stone thee not; but for blasphemy; and because that thou, being a man, makest thyself God. Within the first two minutes of the video below, Alan Watts talks about individuals who play with psychedelics and how they can develop a sense of inflation by believing “I am God in the western sense of the word.” He goes on to define “I (as) the total panorama of experience, everything that’s happening.” I concur.
Here is my point. During one of many of my life reviews, I realized I needed to figure out why I felt guilty for lying about my actions to Miss Robinette but not for the actions themselves. I concluded that my sexual behavior outside of the confines of marriage felt natural and thus like righteousness to me. So why should I feel guilty over something that didn’t feel wrong? Having to lie about it, however, felt like I was going against the grain. It felt wrong to have to deny that I did something that felt so right.
I think unconsciously, I equated searing my conscience to losing my authenticity. To me, lying felt like inauthenticity. And according to scientists, the vibration of emotional authenticity was the strongest vibration measured during the SPANE experiment. And of course, I interpret everything through emotion. After all, I do have a grand water trine in my natal chart made up of my Pisces sun, my Cancer moon and my Scorpio Uranus.
In the video above, Tanya brings full circle everything that I hinted at in relation to taking the shortcut vs the longcut. She also presents a whole new way of thinking about the vibrational scale. It’s far too good to skip. Next, I’ll talk about how I learned that, if indeed, to everything there is a season, then there is a time to be authentic as well as a time to inauthentic.