Category: My Story ~ Enlightenment vs Spiritual Psychosis

For me, there’s always been this point within the Ayahuasca experience, where Grandmother morphs into a dominatrix as she renders me incapable and holds me down with a force that resembles BDSM. This time was no different. Even though I was more surrendered than not when she took me, I lost the option to either…

One evening, in the early part of this year, while cooking and washing dishes, I was using one semi-dry finger to scroll up on TikTok. I was listening but not looking at the screen. I heard this man describing his interaction with unconditional love in like a part two or three of his story. Oh,…

The repairman arrived at my door that warm mid-May day and my nine month pregnant belly went before me as I led him through the trailer. I pointed out a soft spot under the carpet in the living room floor where he should avoid stepping. And I expressed in no uncertain terms that it was…

Prior to becoming an adult, the only time I ever went to public school was for driver’s Ed. I was fifteen and the most agonizingly self conscious I had ever been. Everyone was looking at me. And it wasn’t just because of my height, clumsy awkwardness, red hair or my outdated look and long skirt….

Through Christianity, I was taught, for most of my childhood, that being born again was as simple as asking Jesus, with faith, to save me by coming into my heart and forgiving me of my sins. But then, after experiencing Ayahuasca, I redefined both death and rebirth. And I found myself wondering if the primary…

Especially then, after I have adapted to the cold water, I breathe intentionally. See, at that point, my rapid gasps for air have long since been replaced with calm and almost too slow breaths. And then, before I succumb too far into the bliss of hypothermia, I make myself get out of the water, the…

In a previous entry, I referenced Marijuana, a gateway fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. I see it just above the metaphorical eggplant, a low hanging and easy to reach fruit. Psilocybin is above those and higher up, is Ayahuasca. Now this is just how the forbidden fruit is arranged…

So you can probably see how the teachings of Abraham Hicks could be perceived as spiritual bypassing as defined by @yourspiritualmermaid. Again, she said it is trying to force yourself not to be sad or angry and “trying to force gratitude onto yourself.” However, Abraham teaches to not use force. In fact, they say to…

Spiritual Bypassing is defined by TikTok user, @yourspiritualmermaid, as trying to force yourself not to be sad or angry and “trying to force gratitude onto yourself.” And this is the definition on which I want to focus as I talk about Abraham Hicks. But first, I have to tell you how I got all the…

The year was 2019 when I found myself in contact with multiple television producers to discuss my Hephzibah House experience. It felt like nearly a lifetime had passed since I completed that 1995 summer internship in Winona Lake. Leah Remini’s influence in bringing awareness to abuse within religious cults was expanding right alongside the Me…