I remember the first time I heard someone on Facebook talking about the witch wound. I felt resonance with the concept. It reminded me of my fear of being thought of as a heretic. See, under the influence of my father’s preaching, I had concluded there was nothing worse a person could be than that….
Category: My Story ~ Enlightenment vs Spiritual Psychosis
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DO PSYCHICS MOVE AROUND TIME IN A CIRCLE?
That kind of vision is not unusual for me. I regularly day dream or night dream the future. And at times, I awaken from my dream while the events are happening in real time. Sometimes, the prophetic or psychic dreams, for lack of a better term, are in allegory form and other times they are…
REFLECTING, RESEARCHING & REMEMBERING THE VISION (PART III)
When I was finally alone, I replayed, in my head, every single moment of that Ayahuasca retreat. Whatever I had previously glossed over in real time, I scrutinized during this time of reflection. As I dissected the high strangeness, I kept thinking, No, it couldn’t be. Could it? One thing I knew for sure though,…
TRICKED INTO JOINING ANOTHER CULT?(PART II)
Later in the day, after the Ayahuasca ceremony, and after the shaman’s apprentice had joked about us being a cult, the shaman came over to talk. Out of the blue, and with no lead up, he proceeded to tell me about how he and his partner help people who are stuck, or don’t realize they…
TRIPPING OR TRICKERY?
This story begins with the last time I participated in an Ayahuasca ceremony. I was sick but not with a communicable disease. I had been growing weaker and having a harder time breathing over the prior six months or so but especially recently. At the same time, my pain had also been worsening. I remember hearing my…
WHAT IS THE IFB CULT?
IFB stands for Independent Fundamental Baptist. It is the cult into which I was born. Now, If you think IFB sounds familiar but aren’t sure, maybe you’ve seen at least one of the viral clips of Greg Locke, the radical, screaming, controversial pastor whose religious roots were founded in the IFB. When I saw that my…
A SEASON FOR INAUTHENTICITY
When my children were young, I read an article in a magazine at our doctor’s office. I requested permission from the office staff to rip out and take those pages. Yes, I actually asked. Thou shalt not steal -Exodus 20:15, had been hard wired into the impressionable psyche of my childhood self. But thats a…
IS AUTHENTICITY MY RIGHTEOUSNESS?
During one of my many life reviews, I realized I needed to figure out why I felt guilty for lying about my actions to Miss Robinette but not for the actions themselves. I concluded that my sexual behavior outside of the confines of marriage felt natural and thus like righteousness to me. So why should I feel guilty over…
WHAT IS RIGHTEOUSNESS?
Now I’m at the part where I have to go back to Matthew 6:33. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. So, if I take my theories which I laid out in the previous entries, and combine them, I can make sense of…
TO UNCONDITIONAL LOVE (PART III)
Once Love had my soul, Grandmother Aya switched it up on me. She tricked me. I had thought I was selling my soul to a Love that was euphoric and blissful. But that was only some of it. She made me experience the whole part. And together, she and Love, uncovered all my feelings of…